Good morning! Today's first kratom dose of the day is.....

2 teaspoons of Super Green Malay and 2 teaspoons of White Borneo kratom.

Breakfast was a peanut butter sandwich and a handful of Tex Mex trail mix with iced green tea, assorted vitamins and painkillers on the side.

In spite of being really tired when I went to bed, I didn't sleep well at all. I tried to rest as much as I could. I haven't even checked the app to see if it detected any sleep at all.... I might later but right now, I really don't care.

I had had intentions of getting up on the early side so that I could get out and start working on pruning back one of the crepe myrtle bushes as it's going to take me a good week to finish both of them the way my body is going. Yesterday scared me a lot so I'm pacing myself as much as I can because part of me is afraid that I'll pass out in the yard while doing all that. I'm considering going out for maybe half an hour at a time and taking an hour break (or so, depending on if it's getting near dinner time). At least if I start small, I have a chance of getting it done without hurting myself. There's some branches that are too thick for even the large pruners that I'd need Joe's help with. For today, I'm just going to start on the one next to the garage where the branches are sticking out and thwapping Joe in the face when he lowers the lawn. I'll go from there.

I really have made a lot of mistakes this year. Both with my health and my choices. It's kind of depressing to see the garden being eaten up by the Japanese beetles. I caught some nomming on the sunflowers this morning. I"m not sure what's finding the basil so delicious but I'm considering just harvesting what's left of the thyme (hasn't hardly been touched by bugs) and doing something different with that pot.

The thing is that I can't let these mistakes and mishaps get to me. If I do that, I'll be stuck in that echo chamber of anxiety and depression and I won't want to try anything new next year. Heck, I might not even want to try another garden and that would be sad.

Stay tuned......

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