Good morning! Today's first kratom dose of the day is.....

2 teaspoons of Green Maeng Da and 2 teaspoons of White Vietnam.

Breakfast was half a peanut butter sandwich with a spare handful of Tex Mex trail mix.

There's been some headway in sleep last night. I slept for almost 5 hours, almost one of those hours was deep sleep. I did have somewhat of a rough night. The hot dog last night for dinner was a mistake and I paid for it all night. No more hot dogs for me! It didn't seem to matter how much pepto I took, the reflux just kept on coming back. Another thing that sort of threw me is that I must have either sweated like a horse or I drooled a whole lot last night. Sorry, I know that sounds gross..... My pillow, part of my sheets and part of my blankets were wet and they didn't smell all that great. I"m going to have to change my blankets and sheets today.

One thing that I've noticed today is that I feel weak but I'm not sore or achy (per se) but I have what will probably become a monster headache. All night, I was feeling 'hot/cold', couldn't get comfy. I genuinely feel as if I'm fighting some kind of minor virus or bacterial infection off. The sweating sort of points me in that direction. Another weird thing is that when I woke up all those numerous times, I didn't feel the need to consume massive amounts of water. Usually, when I first get up, I feel totally dehydrated and need to drink at least half of my bottle before I feel the least bit human.

The biggest thing right now is that I dearly want to go back to bed.... not in a 'I"m tired and I'll fall apart if I don't' or "I want to escape from the world and want to use my room as hiding place. More like.... I don't feel well and I just want to be alone and rest so maybe I can feel better overall tomorrow' kind of thing. The whole sweating and feeling hot and cold is making me feel like I really am sick. But, on the lighter side of this, I noticed that my feet and ankles haven't been as swollen as they have the past few days. For me, that's highly dependent on the weather... when it's hotter and more humid, they tend to swell a lot more than it the weather is more mild. If it was more humid, I'd have to wear my shoes rather than the croc knock offs because I would need compression to keep them from swelling too much.

At any rate, yeah, I'm not feeling like I'm 'on top of the world' but in some ways, I do feel better than I had. At least I'm not waking up after sleeping for a few hours, waking up in a panic and being unable to go back to sleep. I much prefer getting to sleep on my own terms and waking up the same way. Even though I'm not sleeping much better overall, I can definitely do without the panic aspect.

On the lighter side.....

I know it's hard to see but there's new growth!!

Even feeling as.... low as I do right now, I can't help feeling a little happier seeing the new sprouts coming up out of the soil. It's hard to tell what's coming up where but I think, in the top left one, that straight row of sprouts could be spinach. some things, I tried to make orderly rows and other things, I just kind of sprinkled in. I'm eager to see how everything fits together in those grow bags.

I"m going to go change my sheets and blankets and maybe I'll catch a nap this afternoon. Truth be told, I'm really not feeling all that great today.

Stay tuned......

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